Saturday, June 11, 2011
Whew! Well, last night dad and I went to the church because the "White Rose Society" was having their last conference there for their Father/Daughter weekend.
After we got there, and I had chatted with two of my friends, on a thirty minute notice, I half volunteered myself to do a fifteen minute talk. (After that came outta my mouth, I was thinking, "What did I just get myself into!?") That's the first time I've ever done anything like that. So, with about thirty minutes before the pastor did his thing, I was sitting there thinking, "What am I gonna do..." I decided I'd talk on how a lot of people aren't really, truly happy these days any more. With a friend's help, we quietly slipped out while he was talking to go print up some stuff from my blog so that I could use that to read a few things from. (Such as "The Author", etc.)
It was actually great. I was soooo nervous, but then I was okay. I was thinking to myself while up there, "How do these people do it? Eeek!" But, it was good. ^.^
Afterward, my friend "Jinx" and I, (long story... don't ask.) went out to walk around in the parking lot. It was dark, and there were street lights all over. The moon was out, and it was so amazing! We had a good talk about prayer, and how we should pray for the impossible, because with God, all things are possible. Then we prayed together, and walked around talking some more.
Prayer is the most amazing thing. You feel so much closer to God! Jinx was saying that when it says in the Bible about not wishing for days before, it's telling you that "Look! You have a beautiful life ahead of you! Don't wish for the past!" And it's true. I love to pray. I love it.
No matter what - pray! Pray for the impossible - with God, ALL things are possible! No doubt!
Life is fast, but take it slow. We can take it slow.
Try smiling. Listen to something that inspires you. Something beautiful. I just want you to know. Something that makes you smile through tears. Baby, don't cry. Smile.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Happy! This make me smile every time I see it. It's got to be my favorite clip in the whole movie.
Are you happy? Truly, happy? You can only be happy in the joy of Christ.
I'm happy... I'm wondering. I'm always wondering. There's so many doors in my life. Some of them are swinging wide open. Others are beginning to crack open, but I don't know if they'll be shut again. I stand in a room surrounded by doors, thinking, "Which one do I take?" But then I remember that I need to wait and see which one will open the widest, and stay that way the longest. I don't need to rush headlong through a door. I need to wait and see which one God nudges me towards.
So much is going on in my life... I mean, next year, I'll be EIGHTEEN! *faint* Even the little things seem like big steps, which they're not... but they seem like it. Glasses. I'm getting glasses. Just for when I'm driving, though. But still. That's something new! Driving - I'm going to start taking lessons soon. Driving??? AH!
Yesterday, I went into the store and bought some groceries while mom was in the car. I got a cart, and shopped. Remembered everything on the list. (And mischievously confiscated a liter of Pepsi to buy that wasn't on the list... ^.^) Went up front, used the debit card, and walked back to the car. It was awkward but really cool at the same time.
...*can see raised eyebrows*
Okay, okay! Maybe not cool... but it was a new experience. ^.^
Where's my life going?? Sheesh! I was sitting at my desk the other day, looking at my face in the mirror, and thinking, "Who on earth is that woman looking back at me?"
She's almost a woman. She's got so many responsibilities inwardly, especially, that are always on her heart. She's got friends that she's trying to push in the right direction, caring for them. She gets worried about them, but has to remember that if they mess up, it's not her fault, but she does have to remember, that the advice she gives them, MUST be biblically based.
I've got people that I'm constantly in prayer for, where I'm their Prayer Warrior. There's so many people to pray for these days. My family, my friends, the people I love.
I'm wondering how my life will go in the next year or so. Who will I meet, who will leave, where I'll go... I just wonder.
Life is an adventure. Full of every imaginable thing. Adventure, drama, happiness, comedy... everything.
Enjoy life. Learn to dance in the rain. Try smiling.
p.s. Enjoy these clips from my new favorite, "Tangled"!
(This is what my Max will end up doing...)
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
The boy in the car was young - he was about 21 or so, and he was crying.
I woke up sad. It was very disturbing.
Dreams are so strange. Sometimes I love them, sometimes I hate them. There's been lots of times where I'll wake myself up and actually be crying. There's other times where I'll shoot up and have a huge smile on my face.
I love dreams. I hate dreams.
A friend and I had been talking about dreams, and we came to the conclusion that dreams are free movies you get to watch at night while your body rests. Dreams are really the only thing that's free these days. You don't have to pay to see them. The only problem is, most of the time, you can't get up and leave if you don't like it. You must see how it ends.
I've been thinking a lot today... just, in thought. My "Thinking Corner" is the rocking chair in my room. Often I'll just go in there and sit, rocking back and forth, staring at the wall, thinking. Sometimes about dreams, other times about people, and still others, my mind just wanders all over.
Sometimes dreams are the only way we'll meet people, or talk to people we already know about all sorts of things. Sometimes, dreams are an ESP for something that's going to happen soon. I've had those before, too. That's why stuff like this scares me, sometimes. If I have a bad dream, I'll be thoughtful over it all day. If I have a good dream, I'm very, very happy, and wonder, "Could this actually happen to me?" God gave us dreams... He gave us thoughts, ideas.
How can we not love Him?
I'm going to write down small excerpts from Psalms... not one in particular, but many. The last is from Jeremiah 29:11 ....
You have taken account of my wanderings; put my tears in Your bottle. Are they not in Your book?
Let Your glory be above all the earth.
I trust in the lovingkindness of God forever and ever.
And I will wait on Your name, for it is good, in the presence of Your godly ones.
Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders which You have done, and Your thoughts toward us; there is none to compare with You. If I would declare and speak of them, they would be too numerous to count.
I waited patiently for the Lord, and He inclined to me and heard my cry.
I groan because of the agitation of my heart.
Lord, all my desire is before You, and my sighing is not hidden from You. My heart throbs.
The steps of a man are established in the Lord, and He delights in his way.
When he falls, he will not be hurled headlong, because the Lord is the One who holds his hand.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.
COmmit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He will do it.
Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently on Him.
Let the words of my mouth, and the mediation of my heart, be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.
What is man that You take thought of him, and the son of man that You care for him? Yet You have made him a little lower than the angels, and You crown him wiht glory and majesty.
For You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you
'I am weary with my crying. O Lord, You are the strength from my youth.
For I know the plans that I have for you', declares the Lord, 'plans for good and not for calamity, to give you a future and a hope.
Monday, June 6, 2011
I went for a walk this morning and had a very excellent time. I was by myself, walking along the gravel road, singing quietly, enjoying the sun and warm summer breeze. Very nice, indeed.
I enjoyed it very much. ^.^
Life is good lately. I've got the week to get my things done, do my school, enjoy my hobbies, and on Saturdays, I get to enjoy random conversations with my best friend. On Sundays, I get to worship God and visit my friends.
The things I love about the week are waking up first thing in the morning, laying there still for a few minutes, listening to the song that my CD player decided to wake me up with. The room is dimly lit, and my white, slightly transparent curtains give the room and fresh glow. Then I enjoy - LOVE coming into the kitchen to pour steaming coffee into my favorite Japanese mug. I watch the creamer make swirls as I stir it in, and then go into my room, turn on a couple of lamps, and sit in my rocking chair. I read my Bible and pray for all of the people in my head, and sip at my coffee along the way. That's my favorite part of every morning.
Being on schedule can be hectic and stressing, but when you look back on it, it's actually very nice. I get my school done, and then get to do my favorite things. I get to draw black and white portraits of my favorite people, horses and places. I get to create random things that pop into my head. I get to reorganize and design my room. All sorts of things.
Every other day, in the evenings, I get the opportunity to support and encourage one of my dear friends. Not only do I get my physical workout throughout the day, but I get my spiritual workout by helping others.
I get to spend the whole week with my family, and some pretty hilarious meal times when dad comes up from work. It's great when he's in a good mood - you can't stop laughing. ^.^
On Saturdays, I always look forward to some sort of random, hilarious conversation with my best friend. She makes me smile constantly... especially with her "Spock" impersonation...
("Because I looove her...") ^.^ ^.^ And no, if you haven't seen the "Stark Trek" Bloopers... you won't get that! :D
And on Sundays, sometimes stressful but always worth it, I get to enjoy church and friends. And there my week starts over.
The days are beautiful, and the time short. Dance in the rain, and always try smiling.
Genesis 9:12-14, 16